Alone

I am home alone by myself for 3 days while my room mate, Damien, is gone. But being physicly alone is nothing compared to the emotional alone I feel right now. Everything I have know has been turned upside down and sideways, in ALOT of different ways! I am on the verge of an awakening of myself, im finding things out about me I never knew at 29! Im on the cusp of 30 and im just now finding out who I rally am as a person and the effects of my actions where others are conserned. Right now I have one friend, Damien, and it hurts me that all the people I thought were my friends turned out to be backstabbing and two faced, but I guess most people are. I am going to shelter myself emotionaly, mentally, in manners of the heart, and work wise. I can trust only myself, which is ironic since im the one who hurts me the most. I am truely alone in southwest missouri. I have no family to count on, friends to back me up, or anyone that loves me, JoeLove. JoeLove is LoveLess. But I will rebound and bounce back this time. Im going to drasticlly change my life over the next six months. New car, new job, new town, a new life. No more dead end jobs, no more reliance on others to get done what needs to get done. No more letting people in so easily, minimal heartbreak that way. Or I could just move to Vegas and marry a stripper!


JoeLove out!