Broken Hearted Yet Again

So once again I sit here with a broken heart. I dated Marisa for about 5 months and had the best relationship I have probably had in my entire life. 2 weeks ago she broke up with me because I have yet to get the divorce that has seemingly held me back in life. She told me she loved me and wanted us to be happy for a very long time, but that that couldnt happen as long as I was still married. Today she told me she doesnt love me anymore, Needless to say my heart sank. She has maintained over the last 2 weeks that when the divorce is final we will get back together, that seems like its over. On top of that, im not feeling well today and the depression has hit me hard. I dont know what to do. No relationship has ever lasted for me. maybe I am destin to be alone.

JoeLove out!

Maybe Marisa?!?

So Its been Feb since I blogged last and alot has happen. I have a new job, a new girlfriend, and a great place to live with a great room mate. My new gf is amaizing! Her name is Marisa and she is funny, playful, smart, and very very hot. She loves me for me, and that is what I have been looking for! Right now she is sleeping on my couch cause I told her Im shy bout writing while someone is standing over me, watching me lol. I am very happy with the way my life is rite now. Although there are a few thing that need changing.


JoeLove out!

All ya need is LOVE

So as all of you know I have been having a really hard time of late. With all my heartache, joblessness, homelessness I have found a renewed hope. A hope I had lost a long time ago, and am glad I have regained my lost faith. My life has been in a downward spiral over the last two years. I am finally climbing out of the crap, crawling out from the rock I was living under for so long. My situation may look grim but my mind is free. I may be sleeping in my car out in the cold, I may not have a job right now, I may be going hungry some nights, but I know in my mind, in my heart, in my life, things are looking up. I am getting back to the beliefs I ran away from, I am going back to the father I shunned and ignored for so long. Maybe only after I go back home will my life begin to come back together. He always loved me even when I neglected him.


JoeLove out!

Its been a long hard while!

So its been November since I blogged, and things arent very good for me. I still havent found a job and have lost my place to live, I am currently living in my car. I dont know when, or if, things will turn around for me. It doesnt look like they will anytime soon. My fam is no help they have told me 4 times in the last 3 months I could go up to St. Louis and stay with them but have backed out EVERY time. I have two friends in the world right now, and those people are the only things I have in my life I can count on. I have no job, no place to live, i cant make a relationship work, and my fam wont help me out. I would do anything for them and have but aparently me being homeless isnt an important concern for them. But anyway I need a job and bad!


Joelove out!