Depression

So I quit my job a few weeks back, which means I'm prob gonna get my car repossessed, get kicked out of my house, and be homeless, jobless, and car less. But all that, as depressing as it is, is nothing compared to my heart breaking again. Now I know i deserve to no have another chance, i get that i screwed up and some people need the opportunity to move on. But I never deserved to be used in such a cruel and heartless way. I know people change, and that's fine, I know she changed, i just didn't know how bad she had changed. And for the worse, to the extreme! I have never been so hurt in my entire life. So hurt in fact I had so very unhealthy thoughts, thoughts I have had before but never to this extreme where I had planned everything out and even said some goodbyes. I recently had a cousin kill himself over a girl, and I remember saying to myself that he was stupid for doing it, but now I find myself having the exact same thoughts I'm sure he did. If my ex wife, who pined after me for so long, used me as a back up for her other guy, and has proven to me that she never wanted me, doesn't want me how can i ever assume someone else will want me? Part of me is wondering how i could let someone tear me down so much, destroy my self esteem so bad, make me think about killing myself. But she is getting what she wants it seems. I have struggled with the fact I left her, and that was a huge mistake on my part. But now I have gotten my mind and spirit to the point where I am willing to do what it takes to make it work, but now she doesn't want me. Who's to say she ever did. Its all my fault, I should have never left, and when I did I waited too long to come to my senses. Life feels very much hopeless and hapless. So I am going to move to St. Louis and live with my mom for awhile until I get my shit together, if that's even possible. The only thing holding me back from truly wanting to move and start my new life is the fact I will feel as if I am abandoning my boys. I love my boys with all my heart and I don't ever want to do anything to hurt them but leaving will do just that. But if i stay in Monett I will be homeless, jobless, and car less, like I mentioned before. What good will I be to them then? Plus I don't feel as if they should see me in the state that I'm in now. My life is very confusing right now and I'm not sure what I should do. Until we meet again...


JoeLove out!

Time to follow thru

I have made a decision to enter a Screenplay writing contest that will be held next year. 600 entries, 600 horror screenplays, one winner. I dont normally follow thru with a whole lot in life so I feel that this is something I have to stick with to sort of prove to myself i can stick with something and finish it. I bailed out on school, I have had alot of small buissness ideas in my life. But I never followed thru with any of it. This is something I think Im good at and I love to do it, so why not follow thru. Now i just have to come up with a story and write it out. If any one has any ideas please comment. Im kind of having issues with story ideas. But if not Ill come up with something lol


JoeLove out!

Funk no more!

So I have been in this funk for the last few months. Today I have decided that Ineed to get myself out of it. How will I do that? Im not really sure, but something good has to happen soon. I need to get motivated to stomp the funk out! Recient events will make it harder I think, but I will try.


Joelove out!

Does anybody even read this thing?

I would like more feed back from the people who may read this. A simple comment will suffice.


JoeLove out!

Cleaning out my closet

I feel that there are some people I have to clear some things up with.
Mom-- I do what I want in life, I have tattoos, I have had piercings and will get more. I am an adult so stop judging me. O and I will get back into church when I feel like it.

Sara-- I love you more than you will ever know. And I hurt me more than anything when you told me you get along better with him than you ever did with me.

Beki-- Im right and you know it. My feelings have nothing to do with jealousy, but more to do with the fact you don't trust my instincts.

Sarah-- I love you but you should stop having sex with your bf. It's not gonna last. O, and get a freaking job.

Ken-- I hope you die!!!

Joseph-- Grow the fuck up and stop mooching off of everybody around you.

Brit-- Make up your mind about your husband already. Either your staying with him or your not, stop bitching about it, Im tired of hearing about it.

This is just a few of my complaints right now. By putting this out there I know I risk being blasted myself. I dont care right now. Bring it.


JoeLove out!

Its' the one thing I'm good at, just trust me!

I have this gift. There are not very many things in my life I am good at, not many things at all. But where matters of the heart are concerned, I seem to know exactly what to do to help you with your relationship. Although I feel unlucky in love myself I have a knack for helping others. Some people, no names mentioned, doubt my skills. My advice has been put to the test and proven. I have never had anyone tell me I was wrong until now. And that may be because they don't want to hear what I have to say. Just because I have advice doesn't mean it's going to be what you want to do. And I'm not saying I am always right, but I have a proven track record. And I think that people should listen to what I say, and allow for the possibility that I could be right. That's all I'm saying. Oh, and P.S. if you ask me for advice give me the whole story not just your side of it.


JoeLove out!

Update

Ok, so things have been a little better but are still not perfect. Im living with 2 other guys but will be moving into a new place with a friend at the end of the month. Work is ok but still sucks. My buddy josh is wanting us to move to Nixa and im thinking about it. It would be closer to springfield and I could make more money anywhere up there, plus it would be the move I need. If we do decide to move I would be really excited about it. But anyway thats the jest of it. Peace.


JoeLoe out!

What to do?

I'm not sure what Im supposed to do. This whole being homeless thing is getting old real fast. I'm not sure if I should try to move in with my mom in St. Louis or if I should try and find a roommate in Springfield and move up there. Or if I should just try to get another part time job and stay in Monett. I dont know what to do, I know going to my moms is not what I want to do, but I know I dont want to live in Monett so Springfield seems like my best bet for right now. My only issue is the money I would need to move in somewhere, not to mention finding another job when I get moved. I have also realized that school is over for me, I dont have internet so I cant do anything anyway. Thats all for now.


JoeLove out!

I'm at a loss

In my resent misery I have been doing alot of thinking, mostly about my life and friendships. I realize at times I am not the best friend I can be, although I do try to be. My life has been absolutely crazy for the last 4 months, and I dont know if I have ever been this stressed out. The whole Sara thing aside, my life is so complicated but I'm going to stop feeling sorry for myself. I have been told I do that too much. I need to get my life together, I need to find a way to make my life work. I need to become a better friend. I need to find a place to stay then a place to live. Anyway, I'm not really sure if this blog made since to anyone but me but there it is.


JoeLove out!

Friends

So for the last 3 weeks my soon to be exwife has allowed me to sleep on her couch because I didnt have a place to go. I didnt have the money, and still dont, to get my own place. Making 7 dollars an hour is really helping my cause. But anyway, I appreciate what she has done for me for the last few weeks, I really do. I never asked to stay, she offered it to me. But now she has resended her offer and is kicking me out. Where I respect her desision, and respect that this is her house, I think that if she didnt want me here in the first place she shouldnt have told me I could stay. And she gave me a reason, which I dont nessisarily buy, but her reasons are her own. I feel really betrayed and like I have lost a good friend because of choices she has made resently. It all started because she has a new boyfriend, and she doesnt want him to know how she has helped me, which I understand, she just could have went about it differently. Beki has been there for me ALOT, and I am very grateful for it. But I guess I was wrong about how strong I thought our friendship was. Friends dont just turn thier back on you, but she did. For what ever her real reasons are, I feel totaly tossed aside and like we had a diposible friendship. Then, on top of everything, she then acts as if she is conserned about where Im gonna go and what Im gonna do. I feel if she was really conserned she wouldnt have kicked me out in the first place and thrown our friendship away. I have done this way too much with my "friends" over the last year. So I say FUCK all you people that just throw friendships away for no aparent reasons.


JoeLove out!

Homeless again!

So due to circumstances entirely beyond my control, I am once again homeless. For any of you that may care. I find myself not having any friends that do care. But such is life, and i will survive. At least I think I will. Its hard not having a place to live, but its harder not having someone who cares if you do or not. I have a very pathetic exsistance where I literally have no friends. I have no one right now in my life I can count on, NO ONE! But Im trying not to throw myself a pitty party, but its hard not too. I'll get through it on my own, I always do.


JoeLove out!

Love and philosophy

So due to recent events I spent alot of time thinking about love and wiether it accually exsisted. I'm talking about romantic love, not the love you have for family or your kids. I went around for about 2 weeks knowing that love did not exsist, or at least thinking it didn't. I finally came to realize that love does exsist, just not in the way most people think it does. I feel that love was created by God to be an unconditional thing, thats the way he loves so thats how love is supposed to be. Thats what God meant love to be. Most relationships end because someone did something wrong or someone was unhappy. They said they loved eachother but if your love is based on what the other person does, its conditional. I feel that no matter what, if you have a true love for someone it doesnt matter what that person does you won't just throw them aside, thats unconditional love. The key is to find someone who loves you unconditionally too. Thats the trick, it's hard, nearly impossible. I'll blog some more on this topic later. I hope I made you think about your love life and how you feel about the person you "LOVE"


JoeLove out!

It's been a long time...

So I have been without internet for about a month so I havent been able to blog. But know I'm back, and boy do i have so stuff to talk about! I have some new insights on life, love, and just things in general. Alot of things have changed in the last month and in due time I will discuss them. But for now, I'm gonna go.


JoeLove out!

Juvenile? Yes. But it was fun!

This is what I stayed up till 6am this morning doing. With my accomplices Nathan and Casey (aka T.C.) I know its something high schoolers do but hey I never did it in High school. No time like the present. FYI! 12 hours later the Taco Bell in Monett is still serving Vajita Steak melts!


JoeLove out!

Red Sauce Warning!!!

So just a warning to those of you that eat Taco Bell regularly, beware of the red sauce! This is what happens when 200 degree red sauce hit human skin. Now my tattoo is probably ruined and Ill have to get it touched up, what a bummer!

JoeLove out!

Alright you sold me. He's not that guy.

OK, so after a lengthy discussion with my brother, who is 19 and WAY smarter than I, I have been sold on the fact that Barack Obama is not the Antichrist. After more studying on the subject I have come to realize that the Antichrist is someone who will be behind the scenes of making the New World Order involving a coalition of peace with every nation, a one world currency, and a one world government. This person, once the table has been set and everything is in place, will then step up into the possition of power. This person is likly to come from one of the 27 countries in the European Union. The European Union has already started a single currency for it's countries, we know this a s the Euro. In fact the Euro is already much stronger than the U.S. dollar, only giving the European Union just cause to incorperate the Euro into American society, if the U.S. complies, which acoording to the Bible, they will eventually. To my knowledge Barack Obama is not in any way affiliated with the EU. The fact that he is charasmatic, powerful, and "for the people" is only a coincidence. This does not mean that I think he is good for our countys next president. I have no stance on the matter, I could really care less. Do I think he's the right choice? I don't know. Do I think he will win? Yes. But Barack Obama is not the Antichrist.

JoeLove out!

Blah Blah Blah

So for some reason today I just feel...well...BLAH. A mild depression has set in. Maybe it's cause my check sucks this week, or maybe cause I'm only making 7 bucks an hour at a crappy job, or cause I can't stand my roommates and it's really lonely not having them to hang out with. Who knows? It's been a really bad 2 weeks and I just don't see it getting better right now. Next week on my days off I'm gonna start looking for a new job and stop bitching about the one I have. Maybe then I can move out and find a place in Springfield and get away from this small ass town. O well, tomorrows a new day.


JoeLove out!

Funeral

So today was Matthews funeral. And I was asked like 4 times today if it was a nice funeral. Of coarse it wasn't a nice funeral, it was a funeral. No funeral is a "nice" one. Sure there were a lot of people there to pay their respects and support for Matthew and his fam, but that doesn't make it "nice". Anyway, it was sad and I hated every minute of it. I don't like funerals and especially of people who are my friends. As I mentioned before about Matthew, he was a great artist. That is something I knew he was, but I didn't know how good he really was until his family put up some of his artwork at his viewing. He was an AMAZING artist! Portraits, fantasy, animals, landscape, it was all amazing. I ask myself why this 19 year old kid was working at Taco Bell and not going to art school. If you go to deviantart.com you can see the caliber of artist he really was, words don't do it justice. Matthew was an absolutely amazing person and we will all miss him dearly.

Matthew McCully 1989-2008

JoeLove out!

Over my dead body!

So I got this text from my roommate Ty tonight, who I haven't talked to in like a week in person, and the first thing it says is, " Either take care of your dog or get rid of her." He said hes tired of her pissing on the floor and tearing shit up. My network was down at the time so i couldnt text him back, but i was effing HOT! Like I havent picked up Jordans shit and stepped in his piss at 3 in the morning on my way to the bathroom. Yet I never bitched once! And I know she tears stuff up so I try to keep her in my room when im at work but its not fair for her to be trapped in there all night. I let her out during the day and before I go to work to go to the bathroom and when Jordans home I let him out too, so why can't they do the same? I am at work till 5 in the morning some times and I know she has to go pee while im gone, what am i supposed to do about it? Its not like I can leave work just to let my dog out. I do it for them. I treat Jordan like I do them, family. I take care of him, feed him, let him pee. But heaven forbit they do the same for Lucy. Ty has counted that she has pissed on the floor 4 times this week and he says its cause im not there to take care of her. Well fuck Im at work what the hell am I supposed to do! Maybe Ill just stop taking care of Jordan and they will se he does the same shit. But I will be damned if I get rid of Lucy! I am so pissed right now, I so dont need this shit!


JoeLove out!

I just got back.

It's almost 3am and I just got back from taco bell. I was woken up at 12:30 by Britt saying Matt had been in and accident. I got up and went right over to Taco Bell. On my way I see flashing lights, no one told me he had died, or that it had happen at the intersection of Taco Bell right on 60. Matt and Vicki were crossing the street to go to the convenient store when Matt was hit my a car and killed instantly. The driver kept driving until the passenger made him pull over.
Matt was young and very creative. I can't help but think about the last thing I said to him earlier today about how he should start paying for his drinks when he comes in the store, because he came in every night to get a Dr. Pepper. Matt was very talented. He was a VERY accomplished artist, and had aspirations about writing a book. He was incorporating his art work into a video game that he and some friends were working on. Matt had so much to offer the world, and was a thinker. He always had an opinion. He was a very special person and A LOT of people will miss him.
I found myself trying to be strong for everyone else at Taco Bell cause that's what I do, it's whats expected of me. Yet when I got home I completely lost it. I pray for his family, friends, and his co workers. You don't realize how much the people you work with are like family until something drastic happens. Matt was a great person. We will all miss his dearly. We love you Matt.


JoeLove out!

P.S. More on Matt as we try and figure this whole mess out.

So I been thinking

I have been thinking a lot about moving out on my own. Now, I am out on my own. But I mean without roommates. Don't get me wrong I love Ty like a brother, and Bailey, while sometime difficult, is pretty cool. But I know when I'm done with school I will want to move closer to Springfield cause that's probably where I will find a job. And if I move right as I graduate and find a new job it will make things 10 times more stressful. I know a lot of people will be upset if I do move. Like Ty and Bay or even Beki. Although I really don't think she will be mad I just think she will have some issues where the boys are concerned. And that is understandable, we will have to talk about some stuff, but I think it's nothing that can't be worked out. Although there is another problem, like how I'm gonna fund this little move only making 7 bucks and hour at Taco Hell. I need to find another part time job in order to make it work, and even then I have to get more organized. I'm not exactly great at managing my finances. But I'm confident enough that if this is what I want I will get my act together. Anyway, it's just what I have been thinking about.


JoeLove out!

What an EFFING mess!!!

So I shaved my dog today, and OMG what a freakin mess! There was hair every where! I'm surprised I made it out alive! Imagine some one taking a hamster and blowing it up, now take that hamster and add about a million friends of his, thats what it looked like. But it had to be done cause I couldnt go one more day of living in the fur factory. It's every where in my room, my bed, my clothes, there are 3 shirts I'm sure i will never wear again cause she has choosen them, not the huge pillow I got her, to sleep on. I think on of the shirts is grey, I dont know I cant tell anymore. But i dont have to worry about it anymore cause I will shave her about every 3 months to keep her from turning my room into a fur covered dungen of filth!


JoeLove out!

Thats it! I'm taking 30 days off!!!

I seem to be the person everyone turns to for love advice. I truly believe I was given the name Joe Love for more than Narcissistic reasons. i have a knack for sorting peoples love lives out. I don't know why I just seem to know what to do to fix things. And it has been prooven that if people follow my advice things will get better. Although I have trouble with my own love life I can fix others. But more recently people come to me and ask for advice and then don't follow it, which is why I'm taking this 30 day break. I'm tired of saying I told you so when people come to me and say "I should have listen to you." I know you should have. I know what I say is right. Don't get me wrong, I'm not some love guru, I can't ALWAYS fix everything. But I do know that if you come to me with a problem in your love life, its most likely your fault. Something you need to change in your life that is causing the problem. People don't like to hear that. I don't tell you what you can do to change the other person, they have to work that out not you. i tell people to work on thier flaws, and comprimise. Don't change who you are, just how you do certin things. But anyway, I'm taking 30 off as the "Love Guru" I just need a break from all your problems so that I can work on some of mine.


JoeLove out!

True Love!

So I was in a movie last night and about half way thru it I got real sad. I couldn't figure out why I was sad untill it hit me. I missed my dog!!! Laugh if you will, but the new lady in my life has had an effect on everything I do. I can't explain it, but I love this dog. People say you can't love someone you have only known 3 days, but I disagree. I know different rules apply to people love than dog love, but maybe they don't. If I can feel this was about Lucy only knowing her 3 days why can't I feel that way about a person? I think I can, its just too taboo to tell a person you love them if you only known them a short time, but my dog...shes a different story. I love having someone who is genuinly happy to see me when I walk in the door, I don't think I have had that for a long time. With the exception of my kids. So there I said it, I LOVE LUCY! LOL And I have only known her 3 days.


JoeLove out!

Another Why

So I was drinking Gatorade and I noticed something. I drink it, it goes down into my stomach. Why then is my spit red? I dont have it in my mouth anymore, and the spit I get in my mouth wasnt there when I drank it. Thats just weird!


JoeLove out!

Im not having a good day

Fuck computer viruses and spyware!!! So I tried to do my radio show today and my computer is infected. It kept shutting off, so I had to rescedule my show for monday. I guess thats what I get for not having good enough protection on it. It really pisses me off, I work so hard all week for my show and then when time comes to do it my computer is retarded. I'm really bummed about it. I hope I can get it taken care of before monday or I'm screwed!



JoeLove out!

Why?

So as u just read, I have a new pal, Lucy. While taking Lucy out today, she had to do her business. And I got to wondering, why are humans the only ones who have to wipe after pooping? It boggles my mind to see an animal just crap and walk away with no...ahem...residule residue, while we spend millions a year in TP. Now I know nature has its reasons, but why? Anyway, just something for you to think about on your thrones.


JoeLove out!

Welcome Lucy!!!

So I went to the Humane Society yesterday with a friend and went home with a friend for life! Lucy is a 3 year old Corgie mix, and is as cute as can be. I dont have any pics yet but rest asured I WILL be posting some. She is such a badass dog and she gets along great with Jordan. (my roommates' dog) She is a total attention whore which is fine with me, mainly cause I am too lol. She loves taking naps on me, although I need to stop letting her sleep with me. She does this thing when you tell her no, or even if you raise your voice, where she shows her teeth like shes pissed about it. Its so cute! Its awesome to see the personallity come out of her. She and I were meant to be together. Now heres my plug. If your looking for a new cat or dog, go to the Humane Society. These are animals that need love and a good home. Most of them will be put to sleep if we dont adopt them. So please please please go to your local HS and find yourself a lifelong friend!


JoeLove out!

I feel like I totaly BOMBED today!

Here it is 5 o clock and I still dont have my grade for my broadcast today. It ended at 1. I made some mistakes in it today that Im not happy with, even if my instructer didnt notice them. And a few he did notice. I know its not as bad as Im making it out to be in my head, but this is what I want to do, and I want to do it as well as I can. I dont want to fail, but then again who does. I put some stuff off this week and I wont do that again. If Im gonna be the best, I need to act like it and prepare better. Which means going over my entire catalog of music and making sure everything is what it says it is lol. Im not distraught over it, I just wished it had gone better than it did. Next week it will! Even with a day less to prepare.


JoeLove out!

Obama, Antichrist?

Before I start this post I want to point out I have no affiliation with any political party. I am not a racist, and I dont even vote.

I have watched the progression of the 2008 presidential election. And I have come to a probable observation. Barack Obama could very well be the anichrist. The Bible say alot about what to look for in the anitchrist. Such as... In Revalation 13:5

And there was given unto him a mouth speaking great things and blasphemies; and power was given unto him to continue forty [and] two months.

Thats 3 and a half years. And if you believe what the bible says, that is half of the Tribulation that takes place at the end of times. 3 and a half good years followed by 3 and a half bad years.

Here are a few facts about Obama. He wont wear an American flag, he wont put his hand over his heart during the Star Spangled Banner, he doesnt believe in the Bible, he is a public smoker. And with all these things the American people still love him. The Bible says the antichrist will will be very charasmatic and well liked by all.

And all that dwell upon the earth shall worship him, whose names are not written in the book of life of the Lamb slain from the foundation of the world. Revalation 13:8

He has won the Demacratic vote and will soon be in the White House. Next step, World Domination. Many people feel as if Obama, if elected President, will be assasinated within the first year or two. Hears what the Bible says about that.

And I saw one of his heads as it were wounded to death; and his deadly wound was healed: and all the world wondered after the beast

And he exerciseth all the power of the first beast before him, and causeth the earth and them which dwell therein to worship the first beast, whose deadly wound was healed.

And deceiveth them that dwell on the earth by [the means of] those miracles which he had power to do in the sight of the beast; saying to them that dwell on the earth, that they should make an image to the beast, which had the wound by a sword, and did live. Revalation 13:3,12 and 14

The Bible states that the anichrist will work miracles, including "surviving" a deadly wound. If anytime during his presidancy Obama is hurt, in any way, that should be fatal, remember what I say here today.

How can a person who is so unamerican be loved by so many americans? I assure you its not his political stance, or leadership skills. Its something far more sinester and supernatural. Those who will be decieved by this man will say I'm crazy for thinking it. In thier eyes he does no wrong, why would they care what I think. But for those of you that are on the fence about this man, remember my words an the words of the Bible...

And I saw another angel fly in the midst of heaven, having the everlasting gospel to preach unto them that dwell on the earth, and to every nation, and kindred, and tongue, and people,Saying with a loud voice, Fear God, and give glory to him; for the hour of his judgment is come: and worship him that made heaven, and earth, and the sea, and the fountains of waters. Revalation 14:6-7

Just something to think about.

JoeLove out!

Spoons, Straws, and Other Germ Infested Things!

So while out tonight I went to TCBY. I love TCBY. They have anything you could want icecream wise. Shakes, cones, sundays. With tons of toppings. Gummie bears, sprinkles, peanutbutter cups. So what do I get? Soft serve vanilla. Yeah I know I'm plain. Anyway thats not my point. The point is when the fat guy behind the counter brings me my tasty treat he reaches under the counter and puts a plastic spoon in my icecream. Which is fine cause I need a spoon to eat it, but it had no wrapper! Is that sanitary? What happen to giving me a spoon in a wrapper so I know the spoon is clean! I invision the fat guy closing up his shop, grabbing the trash, digging thru it to find spoons people have thrown away, then rinsing them off to put them back in the box he got them out of originally! That probably doesnt happen but how do I know it doesnt. Another thing I hate is when people get me a drink and put a straw in it for me, dont do that! How do I know you arent out of straws and grabbed one out of a cup you just took off of someones table? And another thing, if I ask you to try what it is Im drinking, dont drink out of my straw. Take off the lid and drink from the cup! I dont know where your tounge and lips have been. Its only ok for you to do that if your family or a well trusted friend. People need to understand that there are some things you just dont do.

JoeLove out!

Random Thoughts

Looking at my computer desk I see... my cell phone, sunglasses, an Empanada from taco hell, keys a dollar, half a cup of water, half a bag of ranch Doritos, 2 computer speakers that dont work, 84 cents, a sharpie, one mix cd, and a can of Red Seal Wintergreen Long Cut.

I need to blog more about stupid crap.

Why haven't I eaten that Empanada yet?

Maybe i'm the one, maybe I,m the one...

Why do I have a bottle of antifreeze in my room?

I want to go see a movie...any movie.

August 13th is a great day.

I want to go floating.

I might go fishing tommorrow.

I hope Nathan realizes shes just a girl, I know u love her dude, I've been there and still am. But stop thinking stupid thoughts!

I need to write that commercial!

Not to mention finish my playlist and write my news stories!!!

Anyway, those are my random thoughts for the day lol.

O! and i would love to see a purple penguin!

JoeLove out!

Music these days...

So, there is alot of new music out there right now that is stupid, dumb, and senseless...and Im lovin it! For example, Katy Perry's "I kissed a Girl". While i applaud girls making out, its just a stupid song. But it has a catchy beat , and i find myself singing it at random times. And it seems when I start singing it people around me get it in their heads too and start singing it. Or how about Flobot's "Handlebars"? I can ride my bike with no handlebars, with no handlebars, with no handlebars. How stupid is that? But, once again, I love it! I have downloaded both songs off Itunes. Not to mention Afroman's "She won't let me fuck" or Rehab's "Last tattoo". I don't understand why but they make my life interesting. So... keep the hits comin and I will keep downloading lol.

JoeLove out!

I Got a Freakin A!

So I had my first 2 hour broadcast today and... I got an A! Im so stoked! It was fun and challenging, I LOVE IT! I have deffinatly made the right choice to do this. I'm gonna go now before I start bragging on myself lol. Peace!


JoeLove out!

Ya Know What Really FUCKING Grinds My Gears!?!

Stupid parents who drive drunk with there kids in the car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What the fuck is wrong with you!?! So I'm working the drive thur tonight at Taco Hell, and this drunk couple are on the speaker. Normally I love drunks in the drive thru cause they are freakin hilarious and its fun to mess with em. And this started off like every other drunk order until they pulled to my window and I saw they had 2 kids in the backseat asleep! What fucking idiots! OK its one thing to put your life in danger and drive drunk, don't get me wrong i believe its 100% wrong cause you put everyone on the road at risk. But fucking leave your kids at home!!! As they leave I tell them not to kill their kids, I promptly got a finger which screamed "I'm a good mom so fuck you". I tell you what, if I ever drive drunk with my kids in the car, please someone take me out back and fucking shoot me in the face! I love my kids too much to put them in that kind danger. To you parents that feel you have to get drunk and drive around, find a fucking babysitter. Then maybe you will only kill yourselves, and your kids can go to a good foster home where the adults act like... well... adults. I'm sorry I didn't mean that... oh wait, YEAH I DID!!! I will apologize for all the F-Bombs. But this has got me REALLY HOT!!!

F-Bomb count---7

JoeLove out!

Cyber Dating

So I have heard alot of stories about people who have tried it. And I just didnt get it. I believe that 80% of the guys that try online dating are just looking for sex. Don't get me wrong, sex is good. But I also believe that 80% of the women that try dating online are looking for a genuine relationship. Which is also...good. I believe that the male population is made of two types of guys. The first group is made up of about 75% of men who want nothing but a fuck buddy or a meaningless relationship. Ladies you are right to think that most guys are pigs. I agree. Most guys will treat you like crap and throw you away, or keep you around until you get tired of them. I have seen it more often or not, with friends or just people on the street. But whats worse than a guy who treats you like shit is a girl who stays and puts up with it because you "love" him. Where do you think your relationship will go if he doesn't really care about it.

The second group of guys, about 25%, are genuine, nice, caring guys. Yes ladies they do exist, just ask anyone I have dated lol. These are the guys who are serious about making you happy and doing what it takes to make the relationship work. These are the guys who aren't afraid of commitment and getting into a serious relationship. They are few and far between, so when you get one, KEEP HIM! The old adage is very true, nice guys DO finish last. Trust me I know. It sucks so when we, the nice guys, find someone we truly care about we tend to try harder which is one of the reasons our relationships work so well. And if we get lucky enough to be in a relationship with someone we fall in love with, we work harder cause we know how bad it sucks not to feel that.

The whole point of dating is to get to know the other person well enough to consider a relationship. We all put our best foot forward on a first date. How are we to truly know someone we have never meet except for a few hours in some chat room? Browse some dating sites. If its reputable, you wont see anyone saying that all they want is sex. Guys put on a mask of being genuine until they get what they want. Ever been in a relationship where you started it with one person and ended it with a completely different person? That's what happened, they got what they wanted and for awhile they keep up the facade to keep it for awhile, but over time they get tired of not being themselves. They didn't change into this differ ant person over time. They started off deceiving you and then showed you the real them, which isn't as appealing as what you thought they were.

That's how online dating works. Deceive them until you get what you want. So any of you out there considering dating online, don't! Those of you who are reading this and are currently doing it, stop! There will be some of you that didnt believe what I say. And that's OK. But when you get burned don't come crying to me. I have givin you fair warning, and in site into the male way of life. Well most of them anyway. Keep on the look out for us good guys and give us a shot. You don't have to be one of the many women who fall for the asshole.

JoeLove out!

JoeLove and Sara on The Morning Rash Show!

So, I dont think this is what it will be called although I think its pretty freakin hillarious! I cant wait to be on the radio and talk about meaningless crap. And I have the most badass side kick lined up lol. I realized tonight that Sara would be the perfect co-host for my show. We playfully disagree about enough stuff that it would make for entertaining radio. Not to mention she has an extencive knowledge of popular music. Shes funny, smart, and extremely HOT, although you wont see that cause we will be on the radio lol. Anywho... just thought I would drop the bomb on all of you who were gunnin for that job, the possition has been filled.

JoeLove out!

Friday the 13th

Next to Halloween, I love Friday the 13! It seems for the last few of em weird stuff has happened. I cant wait to see what will happen today, I hope it just weird and not completly fucked up. I have to work tonight, I hope it doesnt get crazy. Its storming like crazy outside, so I hope its slow. Man today can be great or it can suck.


JoeLove out!

In search

I am in search of things to talk about on my radio show. I need to find some random things to just to rant or talk about. Normally I can find random things to talk about, thats never really been a problem for me. Its just when it comes to having to talk about stuff I find it hard to come up with stuff. I need someone to bantter with, but on my radio show for school it will just be me. Dont get me wrong I love talking and I dont have a problem rambbling, but i need opinons to play off of. So... if you have any ideas or opinions, help me out!

JoeLove out!

Serial killers

So I have been doing some research for a movie Im writing. I have been watching movies about serial killers. I have been researching real life killers on the internet. No, Im not morbid. Im not some weird, pycho guy. The criminal mind just facinates me. Its interesting to try and understand how thier minds work. How can seemingly normal people, people who live "normal" lives, who have normal friends, and normal jobs can just murder someone in cold blood. How they can brutally distroy someones life? Not to mention the lives of thier loved ones.

Killers like Ted bundy, the first person to ever be called a "serial killer", John Wayne Gacy, and the BTK killer, Dennis Rader are prime examples of how normal these monster can seem. Ed Gein on the other hand wasn't your adverage killer, in fact he didn't really kill a whole lot of people. He was known more for dismemberment of corpses he dug up out of graves. Not many people know that Ed Gein was the inspiration for the texas chainsaw series. What makes a man peel the skin off of dead women so he can dance in the moon light in a suit of human skin while day dreaming of his mother and wishing he was a woman. What goes through someones mind that makes them think that killing people and doing these terrible acts is ok? Im not trying to be morbid or sick, I just feeling that by learning what I can from the history of killers I can better understand the characters in my story. Reasearch is 80 percent of writing a screenplay. I swear Im not going to kill anyone lol. Well not this week anyway.

JoeLove out!

Polls

I have decided to start posting polls on my blog and running them for a week. They may have meaning behind them, but at times they may not. Please take the poll when you visit. I am hoping the turn out will be good for these. If not Ill just stop waisting my time lol. Happy polling!


JoeLove out!

A quote to make you Think LOL

One of my most fav quotes is from an unknown author. It states that

"The supreme paradox of all thought is the attempt to discover something that cannot be thought."

Pretty much our goal is to think untill we find something we can't think about. Which could be impossible, but I don't think anyone will ever know. When you do achieve something you cannot think how will you tell anyone about it or prove you didn't think it? I love this stuff!

JoeLove out!

This KID is pretty good

Today a great in the sport of baseball has hit is 600th homerun. Only the 6th player in the history of the game to do so. Ken Griffey Jr joins Babe Ruth, Hank Aaron, Willie Mays, Sammy Sosa, and the much debated Barry Bonds in this exclusive club. The 38 year old left handed hitter launched a 413 foot bomb into the right field seats and received a standing O from 16003 Marlin fans in Florida. Like his 400 and 500, number 600 came on the road.

If you know ANYTHING about me you know I am a HUGE Griffey Jr. fan! I, as I am sure he is, am very proud of the fact that Jr. has hit 600 homeruns WITHOUT the aid of performance enhancing drugs, which is more than I can say about Sosa or Bonds. I truly believe he is the greatest player ever to play the game. Yet he has never won a world series ring. But in my book Jr. doesn't have to have a ring to be the best, and he has proven that over and over.

Jr. from the bottom of my heart I thank you for all the great memories you have provided me since i was 10, ever since hitting your first homer at 19 years old on April 10th 1989 in the Kingdome off of White Sox's pitcher Eric King. That was the first pitch you ever saw in the Kingdome and you have never looked back. Every game i have ever attended when you have played you have hit dingers, only adding to the greatness of your talent. Congrats on your outstanding career. The many achievements you have accomplished over you career have defiantly sealed your spot in the hall of fame. I pray that you end your career where it began, and you retire where you belong, in Seattle. When the day does come for you to retire, it will be a sad day in sports, not just for the world but for me personally. Keep swingin, and know when 700 comes there will be a spot on my blog for you.

JoeLove out!

Attention members of the female gender!

I have blogged about this one too, still you just dont get it. Want to know whats more gross than sitting on a toilet seat some guy just peed on? How about lifting up the seat and seeing a blood trail! I mean it's bad enough we have to put up with your "mood swings", but to have to see why your having "mood swings" is a little much. When I walk into my bathroom I don't expect to eat off the floor, but I also don't expect to walk into the basement at the Hewit house! I walked into the bathroom at taco hell the other day to clean the ladies restroom, it looked like the floor of a buthcher shop! Clean it up a little bit, I know some of us have been married and things like this shouldn't bother us, but lets keep some "mystery" in our lives where that stuff is concerned, k? Guys help me out with this. Let your wives know you understand thier bloody plight, but that they need to keep it to themselves.



JoeLove out!

Taking the Z out of Xoo...again!

So, I have blogged about this on a previous blog spot before. But I thought it was just as relevent today as it was 2 years ago. So I have completly withdrew the letter Z from my vocabulary. Why, you may ask. Cause whoever came up with this stupid language is an idiot, and all those that follow the teachings of the English Teachers of the world are doomed to fall into a trap that will forever leave them scratching thier heads. Example: Xylophone-- Why does this word start with an X is it makes a Z sound? The correct spelling should be Zylophone. And if the X can make a Z sound, why can't I spell Zoo, X-o-o! Xenophobe, Xenon, Xanthochroid, Xanthic, and Xanthippe are all words that start with X but make a Z sound. I have chosen to take the letter Z out. from now on Xeal, Xealous, Xebra, Xero, Xest, Xip, Xoo, Xucchini, Xonk, Xone, and yes Xombie will all be spelled with X's. There I have said my peace about the letter Z!



JoeLove out!

Yay Internet!!!

So I finally got my internet on today. I can finally start school and I can finally do what I need to do without worrying about my wireless connection failing when im in the middle of something! Thats all Im just excited! Yeah its ok you can say it...Im a dork.


JoeLove out!

Badass tat!

This is an awsome tat. I want one just like it!



JoeLove out!

Writing the movie to end all movies

If you know anything about me, you know im a huge movie buff. And that I dabble in a little screenwriting myself. I know feel I have the idea that will be a truly great movie. Ofcoarse Im not going to tell you what it is. There are 3 people in the world who know about my idea, and i trust them totally. One day you will go to see a movie, you will be totally ingrossed in it and at the end you will be utterly amaized. Then... you will see who wrote the screenplay. Screenplay written by Joseph Rash. You will then say, hey I know that guy, I read his blog. And he was right about his movie, it was amaizing! well we'll see anyway lol.


JoeLove out!

Ya know what really grinds my gears?

Ya know what really grinds my gears? People who are loud at the movies! I went to the movies last night and saw The Strangers. The Strangers is, debatibly, a horror movie. I sat about 2 rows in front of about 15 teens, who would not shut up. Every time some even remotly scary happen they would scream then laugh for a good minute afterwards. Then they proceed to talk about why it scared them after that. That pisses me off. I understand if you get scared your gonna scream, and i even understand laughing afterwards. Human nature is to laugh when your scared, it makes you feel more comforted when your scared. but if you talk insecintly through out the movie your gonna piss people off. How am I supposed to enjoy a movie I just spent 9 bucks to watch if I cant hear it cause you wont shut up!?! There is a kids movie just down the hall, Im sure those little kids in there dont care if your loud through out the whole thing. But dont be suprised if you get mobbed by a gang of 8 year olds who would kick the living shit out of you for talking through Kung-Fu Panda! Really, if you have no respect for those you maybe watching the movie with, you should stay home and watch reruns of the OC or The Hills! Not to mention I have a extreme respect for any movie I go see, even if it turns out I hate it. I would like to find out if I like it or not on my own and not rmember the movie as one I didnt like cause I couldnt hear it over your giggling. So do us all a favor and get a Netfix subscription and stay the hell home!

JoeLove out!

To what capacity do we exsist?

So I was thimking today about this book I read called "Skin". it was written by Ted Dekker. Thinking about this book and the movie, "the matrix" got me thinking about if we really do exsist in the capacity of which we appear to live in. How do we know if we are hooked up to some machine or not? How can we be sure we are not all just playing some virtual reality game? Is it possible that we could all be strpped to a gurney somewhere having our brains filled with a false reality? Some of us may not even be real, some people could be characters inserted by a computer somewhere. The question isnt IF we exsist, its to what manner we exsist. If we are in this "game" what happens to the world we know if we were to wake up? Is there a world to even wake up to? What were to happen to us if we did wake up? Would we be reinserted into "The Matrix"? If so what is the point of us being here if our lives are not real? Who is resposible for giving us the lives we have in this dream world? How do they choose the rich from the poor, or the living from the dead? Or maybe we have just as much control over our lives as we would if this wasnt a dream. Either way, in reality or in this dream world I choose to make my own rules. I choose my destiny as should you. I will not allow some machine to dictate whiether I am rich or not. Or what job I will have. i chosse to play the game and deal with the consiquences of my actions.


Always playing the game...

JoeLove out!

I give up!!!

So I am in a huge funk today. I have just lost the abillity to care. It seems nothing goes right for me. Whiether its a friend who just doesnt wants to see me anymore, the stress of school, or money problems, it seems like nothing is going my way. I find myself not caring about any of it. The total indifferance is really quite scary. I feel as if it all just doesnt matter anymore. Im not sure how long this will last, but untill it passes im not sure what to think. I havent felt this way in a long time, but I know it will pass. Untill then I will just not care.


JoeLove out!

Ya Know What Really Grinds My Gears?

Ya know what really grinds my gears? People who think they are more important than they really are. Such as fast food managers! I offten find myself looking at the managers at Taco Hell and think who the fuck do you think you are, you make fast fuckin food! Stop trying to be a dictator, we get it, your important you make $8 dollars, you get free meals, you get to sit in the office while the rest of us are busting our asses. Forgive me if I have only been there a month and know more about your job than you do. I have been where you are, and I know how important your job is. Its not! Why do you get so stressed out, your making tacos not landing a plane! You get so pissy over shit you cant control, you constantly bitch about how much you hate your job, quit! It fast food! Things that make you say...Double-u-tee-eff!

JoeLove out!

Taco Hell!

So I have to go to work tonight at 5. I will probably get off about 230ish in the morning. Its not that I hate my job, ok well I do but it could be worse. If I didnt have some of the people i work with it would be real bad, but the people are cool its the whole fast food hing that sucks. Not to mention always closing sucks ass! But hey its payin the bills and it will give me at least 2 segments when I get my radio show lol. Peace!


JoeLove out!

Random Thoughts

1. What is the deal with a 20 oz. bottle of Mt. Dew being 30 cents more than a 20 oz. bottle of Coke.

2. When did justin Timberlake become so cool!

3. I love butterfingers but they get stuck in my teeth so I dont eat em.

4. When Im rich im buyin a purple Hummer.

5. I wish i had Jedi powers

6. I cant live without my fan at night

7. How come I cant meet a woman that loves me for me?

8. Whats the deal with pamentos?

9. Why is that cat in my room again?

10. Am I cool? yeah im cool. Well...I dress cool.


JoeLove out!

Troubled Youth

So there is this kid at work, Cris, hes 17 and he was really down tonight. He wouldnt tell anyone what was wrong so I pulled him aside to see what was up. It seems Cris has a hard time fitting in with anyone. I can relate. You may find this hard to believe but when I was younger I was wasnt popular at all. Thats not to say i am now but non the less. It seems alot of people pick on Cris, hes kind of a big guy and sometimes doesnt say the smartest things. He trys to fit in by being whitty and most of the times it backfires on him. So he asked for my help, he says, "Your good at this type of stuff, Ive seen you help out people with all sorts of problems. What can I do to fit in?" He doesnt know what he wants to do with his life, but at 17 who does. I told him if the people he wants to hang out with treat him like crap he needs to find new friends. I have decided to try and help Cris, althought I dont have all the answers in life maybe I can atleast help build his confidence and show him he doesnt need to rely on others to be happy in life. But once again is that true? I tend to be happy when I am well liked, not just with friends but as far as women go too. Do I really practice what i preach or am i selling a product I dont believe in? More recently I have felt the friends I thought liked me dont really want to be around me. Ty, bailey, Sara. It seems I am relying on my friends to help me through life, but isnt that the way it should be? Arent your friend supposed to support you, love you, and want to hang out with you? My roommates sure dont do that, and Sara isnt really there, it seems anyway. If I have problems or just need to vent it seems like they have there own issues and Im not important. When if at any time they would need me i would do what ever it takes to help them. and I have proven that to them, is it just that they dont fell as strongly about our friendship as I do? Maybe I should help myself before helping Cris. I dont know.


JoeLove out!

Life, Love, and Heartbreak.

So, I pride myself on being able to council others on matters of the heart. I have always been the king of telling others what they should do in thier relationships, but not being able to follow my own advice has been my only downfall. I now have another page of experiance to add to my book of love. Heartbreak. I have dished enough out to heartbreak in my life to write a whole new book, but untill I experianced myself I had no idea the effect it would have on myself or on other people. The utter emptyness I feel has taken its toll, the lonleiness, unbearible. I now know the pain I have caused others, and feel even as if my sorrow is karma bitting me in the ass. Though many know this pain few understand it. I am making it my goal to try and understand it. I may not ever find out why people feel this way when thier hearts are broken, while i deal with my own. I now know the devistation i have caused others, for my life has been devistated greatly. For all the heartache I have caused I AM TRULY SORRY.


JoeLove out!

ROOMMATES!!! AHHHHH!!!

So I live with two roommates, who happen to be dating. And my female roommate, Bailey, is driving me nuts! Her constant complaining about how the house looks, and not doing anything herself, her constant bitching about the air being on, when its 80 degrees outside, and her freaking dog that craps and pisses all over the house, and i have to clean it up, is getting to be too much. WOW I apologize for the length of that sentence. But she is really pissing me off. She acts like this is her house when fact of the matter is my other roommate, Ty, and I were living together long before she moved in. Ty and I have even said it was way more fun before she moved in. She spends all his time wih her, then when he says he wants to do something with me she gets pissy. He cant go out for an hour without her txting him or calling every 10 minutes. Shes driving us both nuts, even if hes to afraid to say it to her. She has a dog, a cat, and a fish. I mentioned the other day that i was thinking about getting a dog, and she flipped saying we already had to many pets! That pisses me the fuck off!!! I wish they would break up, sure my rent would be higher, but i wouldnt care if it meant she wasnt around. If I wanted to be bitched at for stupid shit i would move back in with my mom!


JoeLove out!

Holy Crap!

Ok so tonight was a freakin crazy night. We were non stop at the BELL, and things were nuts! I was supposed to get out at 2am but didnt untill 345am! All the managers, except for the one working, went out to the bar and showed up at 130. they were all drunk and one even flashed me her boobs and tried to get me to touch her ass. Man fast food is a drag, but i need it. Untill I find something else its all i got. But i am gettin tired of all these closing shifts, its hard on me to work till 3am then sleep till noon, do what I have to do then do it all over again. I have no social life what so ever, not that i had a big one anyway, but i would like to be able to go to the bar, or where ever and hang. o well, guess its just my lot in life lol.


JoeLove out!

Back to school!

So i am starting online coarses with the American Broadcasting School. My intention is to become an onair personallity, so that I can distribute the many thoughts of JoeLove. I am excited that I have finally found my calling in life. I took 28 years but I finally know what I want to e when I grow up! It will be a long hard road to get where I want to be in life and im ready tostart down it. June 16th is the classes start and I cant wait!


JoeLove out!

Oh, you dont like it?...To bad!

So with this blog i have decided not to pull any punches. I know that alot of stuff i will talk about on this blog will piss off or even hurt the feelings of some of the people who read it. So this is the warning to friends, family, exs, co workers, room mates, and complete strangers. If your brave enough to read what i write, ok. If you dont want the possibilitiy of being hurt dont read it. Im not saying Im gonna rip everyone, but if something happens and your the cause of my misery, saddness, dispare, or whatever know it will go down here. This is just a warning. FYI.


JoeLove out!

Here I go!!!

So... here i am again! For those of you who thought you would never see JoeLove in the blogging world again... here i am. Im back and this time Im not going anywhere. So much has happen in my life since i last blogged, alomost 2 years ago, and I am ready to start telling the world about whats up! I have new thoughts on love, work, roomates, going to school, and whatever else pops into my mind. So stay tuned, cause ur not gonna want to miss this!


JoeLove out!